My Renaissance Man

Smiling, contented just to watch
Beaming, happy just to resist to touch
Positive, desperate for the little things
Appreciative, loving just to savour the small things

My Renaissance thinker, you battle the rest
No sword held high just your beauty and wit
That Machaivellian villian dont hold a torch to you
He may charge but you will never lose

Articulate, may stumble but always stands back up
Proud, unafraid to be wrong or look bad
Brave, survived all those who put you down
Saved, not only me but also yourself

I am your hero, a night in gleaming armour
Ready to stand tall and kill the enemy
No Machaivellian man will pass these walls
Of love and admiration I've built unknowingly around you

Outlook

Ever changing perspectives is all I've ever known
Nothing stays the same for ever too long
Ghosts of my past finally swept away
Hopes and dreams of a more amazing day

Harsh light rains down as poisonous air swirls around
Dark clouds and closed doors are all to be found
Wishing thinking, none of my questions answered
Faint understanding and reasoning barely heard

While children run, scream and shout
Oblivious to the pain, hurt, suffering to come
Their outlook on life millions of bright rainbows
Of playtime, innocence no consequence or lows

To step back just 8 years and remember the outlook on life
Compare to now and how much you can grow
Sweetness, bitterness, unpleasantness and joy
Final realisation of more seeds waiting to be sown

For this is life, is not as easy and simple as you thought when you were ten
For this is yours, for you to decide what choices you will make
Be influenced well, step back and see the bigger picture
Takes risks but dont fall into nets of barbed wire

Some people will fall, those people who ten years back were oh so sweet
Now thugs and bullies who terrorise you on the street
Others will fly high like how you could never imagine
Those people are the ones to influence the new youth

Outlooks will change, you are what you are
Not as innocent as that dazzling star
Makes those mistakes and take note
Becomes better than they all could have hoped

Grow up

Forget the bad
Forget the naivity
Forget the sadness
Forget the tragedy

People come and go
Grab on too tight and they'll let go
Be yourself and be proud
Don't let what anyone else says go

Be proud stand tall
Laugh at the good and the bad
Face up to things head on not down
Take notice, learn and move along

Teens into adults is a time to enjoy
Laugh through the sadness
Cry sweet tears through the joy

Take nothing too seriously
You only live once
Enjoy your youth
Don't be scared to be wrong

Take a deep breath
Join your hand with mine
Take these leaps of faith and discovery
With no fear of looking behind or down

Rememberance

Tricklings of memories run through my dreams
Swirling spirals if pure hope and happiness
Tears runs down my hot cheeks in streams
At the thought of rememberance being the only thing

Remembering how I felt
Remembering being happy and not wanting any more
Remembering you loved me
Remembering I wanted to spend my life with you

Crashings of emotions attacking and bombarding
Colliding of feelings and dedications cause doubt
Hormones and fears constantly rushing
Young bright flame doesn't want to be snuffed out

Wanting something
Wanting to remember feelings of excitement
Wanting to be naughty and daring
Wanting to be with others beofore you

Dribblings of regrets torment my dreams
Patterings of guilt and badness fall on my conscience
Raining of curiosity course thorugh my veins
Glidings of security swerve through each dare I accept

Needing to feel completed
Needing to feel young and alive at taking some risks
Needing to put one foot out into the new world
Needing to move on and leave you behind

Twisted

Why are things so difficult
When I try to see inside your mind?
It cuts like a knife
When I hear those words of how you truly feel
Like a claw through my heart
When I realise you've misunderstood
I try to explain but you're already lost

Lost in twisted words
I try to reach out but my hand gets torn
The fire in your head scorches every comforting thought
Charred and unrecoverable
You lay there in the dark
Twisted my words so the right things seem wrong

Why won't you listen to me?
When I have something to say
You're hurting so much but you hide away
Inside the safe shell of your heart
Blocking out everyone else who cares
I see now that your anger is there
Only because you are scared

Lost in twisted words
You're safe inside yourself
You're hurting your friends around you
Twisting words into a shield of stone

Monster

Things are always better
When the darkness stays in the tunnel
Unleash it and like a virus
It attacks and destroys
Changing things to another face
So you dont recognise it no more
Let the darkness hide
Seal off the wound
Let the light shine on out
Then there's only good and no evil

Under This Tree

This is my home that I know too well
So many stories that these walls can tell
I was so happy here, content to stay
I’ll be ready to say goodbye one day

Standing here, twirling beneath this tree
I lay beneath with friends a year back minus three
The leaves lay rejected on the ground
New leaves will appear like doors all around.
Which one shall I open if any at all?
Which one will be safe, which will make me fall?

Don’t ever change, don’t ever let this love die
I promise you I’ll keep this fire alive
There’s so much you haven’t seen of me
Clasp my hand and don’t ever break free.

The place we share doesn’t matter anymore
All that does is how happy we are
I’ll sacrifice everything to be with you
Just say you want the same thing too

I’ll leave my whole world behind
So I can see what more of us I can find.

The Fast Life

Good times are exits on this motorway
I turned onto it two months ago
Left the road that only turned to bad times
Swerved onto this brand new motorway.

Take me on a ride
Leave this place behind
Don’t let me look back
Don’t even attempt to pack
Leave the old things, let us have new
Let’s take this road together and get there soon
To an exit we’ll be happy to turn onto
A new start with only our rules

Wrong turns, speed fines, what else could go wrong?
A diversion, speed bumps, a trip lasting too long?
Maybe I’ll have better luck and forget the sad road
Travel steady, comfortably and with a lighter load

Reflections of Emotions

Looking out of the window is for most beautiful
However, what the window reflects makes me doubtful
For you’re looking through one made of glass
Where on the other side, exposed is greener grass.
But my window reveals only scars
Dented on my soul and reflected through the stars.
Most will say to you that you must always try
But I’ll tell you to never be afraid to cry
Look through the glass hole again
Then tell me what you see.
For if it is an empty reflection
You are just the same as me.

Psychotropic

Like deadly nightshade
He is unaware of his impact
Inconspicuous, beautiful and two sided
He can’t help the way he was made

He’s dangerous with potential
All parts dangerous bar the root
If used right could be good for you
Otherwise the result is pain and hurt

Unaware like the plant he’s powerful
A deadly species with a psychotropic effect
A task to rid from my system
But he’s out and the return is doubtful

Pessimistic

It’s time I open my eyes to see
I’ve cast a black spell on things around me
I’ll lift the curse and set you all free
Open my mind and regret who I’ve been.

As black as a rain cloud
Screamed in my head too loud
For what things should I be proud?
Drifting away or standing in the crowd?

I’ve been too blind to notice
I’ve been too sad to see I’m no longer alone
I’ve been too confused, so I apologise
I know I’ve been walking with my head bent low

Are you happy that you’re with me?
I hope you forgive me for the monster I’ve been

Out With The Old, In With The New

Since my first crush
Made my world fall apart
I believed I’d never share my heart

Age eleven it happened
Love like a brand new toy
Just wanted to explore that joy

My hands closed on air
Opportunities never arose
Left on the line with the black crows

A sullen look on my face
The smile never programmed in
Boys thought my heart was made of tin

I see that now
I was letting that scar show
A cold dull statue that needed a tow

I’ve freed my mind
Adopted confidence and a smile
I see that now I have come a mile

Metaphor

The sun is hot and its pulse is strong
I sit here listening to song after song
That meet the rhythm of my heart
Pulsates through right from the start.

Lazy Sundays with my window open
While my favourite bands play at The Bowl
Unable to hear them like I’m unable to move
It feels like nothing can fill this hole.

A hole left open by the blaze of the sun
Its rays beat down upon me
Paralyzed by its strength and its charm
I’m feeling there’s nothing to see.

My eyelids droop to send me to a slumber
I’ve been fooled and beaten by the sun
In its control, succumbed to its spell
Oh too familiar feeling that wasn’t fun

The breeze like a knight comes strolling in
Overpowers the sun and saves me within
My prison so that I can rise
And find my legs to leave the place I felt tied
Now this is a feeling I don’t want to forget
When I was freed and felt grateful not to hide.

Me and You

Shall we take a chance right now?
Pin our hopes and dreams on us
Working out and plan a future
Our eggs in one basket, let’s take the chance.

Who knows what cards we’ll be dealt
Not sure about you, but I’ve never felt
Things lat forever or work this well
Our love can still burn in the fire of hell.

Tell me I’m wrong
Hold me close tonight
Fight away the impending light
Lay here now for however long
Lets turn this into our song.

Our future can meet a junction
We could go our separate ways too fast
I’m still waiting for the sun to set
No way can something this good last.

In twenty, thirty, forty years time
I might still be saying you are mine
Maybe we’ll be at opposite sides of the moon
Split apart and never see one another again soon.

Tell me I’m stupid
Twirl me high tonight
Scare away the horrors in sight
Stare up at the same bright star
And lets stray away too far.

Learned My Lesson

They say you have to go there to come back
Then you’ll know which way to keep you on track
They say you will learn from your mistakes
Then you’ll know what will leave you with shakes
Like a puzzle only one piece will fit
You have to take the lesson to learn from it

Key To My Heart

Finding the key
To someone’s heart
Mat make you fall apart

Certain people
Are fitted to find
The key to release their bind

Finding the right key
Is a hard enough task
If you do you know you’ll last

My heart is still locked
Someone has the key
Who’s destined to unlock me?

Joy

As the wind sweeps leaves on the ground,
I breathe

As the Sun is blazing cheerfully in the sky,
I breathe

As birds twitter in the bird bath in the garden,
I breathe

As water trickles and sparkles magnificently in a lake,
I breathe

As a new day dawns bringing a thousand possibilities,
I breathe

As clouds shift swiftly in the blue sky,
I breathe

As I take in a cool, deep breath,
I am happy.

High Tide

Drowning and sinking into insanity
The surface is too far above me
Arms reach out to me time and time again
I owe you so much for saving me each day

Going Through Changes

Waiting for my phone to ring
Stereo blaring as I sing
Crazy for any sign of you
Hope you’re in the same state too.

As I twirl my hair round my fingers
The scent of you on me still lingers
Clawing at the wall next to me
You’re face is getting hard to see.

Look at what I have become
Its because of you I’m numb.
I imagined I would feel this way
For you, how weird it is to say
I love you though I didn’t at first
Won me round, now for you I thirst.
Hunger and desire just to see you
Aren’t you surprised I feel it too?

FunFair

When do you want this rollercoaster to stop?
How many twists and turns can you cope with?
Will you tell me when to apply the brakes?
I we’re to work something’s gotta give.

Do you come flying by in my dreams?
My worst nightmare is that you’re leaving me
Please fly by tonight and hand on the beams
Of my pessimistic mind and stay with me.

We can fly together tonight
Lets shoot through memory-shot clouds
Sweep out the ageing dusty cobwebs
And stake out the route of out future flight.

Will I ever be certain you’ll stay at my side?
What does it take to make love last?
Will we be prepared if the ride will crash
If you don’t say brakes to stop us going fast.