Poisonous

The lines tell a story
Of progression and broken tracks of discovery
The scars tell a novel of life's challenges and self building
And I fail not to dwell
I try not to drown in the past
As I struggle for air from the distant ascent up to the top

Stagnant air I breathe
In a world which has it's own control
Chains and barriers made of cold steel
I try not to feel this song was written for you
That the other was written from me to you
As I suffocate under endless words of stunning truth

Pure soul
Pure life
Pure flesh and pure thoughts
Dipped in staining tar;
Charcoal which leaves residue
You were the knight in sparkling armour
Were the dream alive each day
You were my renaissance man
The spark
The reason
The truth behind each of my locked doors

Excuse me while I drown you in this confesssion
As you break free and find your own
My soul
My skin
My thoughts soaked in this infectious substance
One day he says I will break free of this enchantment
Escape from the prison I built for myself

Punishment and Consequence

Fallen down on the ground
Ripped flesh
Red liquid
You are dead on both knees my poor soul
Let the poison crawl on in
Fall back
Give in and solute those who invade and destroy
You are weakness afterall
Why fight the pain when it will only win?

Consequence and punishment
You deserve, you know it
Isn't that what you say to that reflection?
Stare into her eyes and dare tell her it's not true
I dare you
I dare you
I dare you to breathe
Crack the glass
Let it bleed
Let it cry with your stare
You dream a blank canvas
Nonchalant and void

Let sweet, salty, defeating droplets caress those cheeks
Let them sail on down that tired, haggered frown
Fell those eyes drowning
Drowning, bulging
Bulging
Welcome the soaring pain of what you once were sail away
Zoom back, my love
The broken mess still on the ground

Festering
Exposed and alone it lays forever
I dare you
I dare you
I dare you to touch
Touch upon my weak friend
Touch upon that death
Find the strength
Draw from a source, to pick up the broken shell

Consequence and punishment
Taste the blood
Despair and misery in your hot mouth
Taste the unknown and trials and tribulations
I dare you
I dare you
I dare you to feel
Feel hope once again
Find the ability
Take it from your soul you felt bleeding on the floor

Boiling Point

One hundred degrees I have now reached
It is the peak, mount everest, cherry at the top
Progression, repression, obsession, aggression
A glass filled now, overspilling, the tap running

Heavy skin is tearing, thoughts slowly wearing
Heavy bones, thirty stone, feet dragging, mind tiring
Keep my head down low, weighted like a balloon
Filled with air, slowly increasing, stretching under pressure

The consequence of the sixth, that day
So simple, so common, it's effect is astounding
Sudden high to a low has damaged my soul
Frustration, need release, something stuck inside
Beneath the skin, like a worm it travels
Infection in myself without a noticeable cure

Sharing

I breathe the same air as billions before me
I touch the same earth like many others
So many sights, smells, textures everyday
Walking through this city I retrace our steps

Run my hand down the stair banisters
Tears dare to invade at your missing touch
For your hand once laid here my love
Like death sadly you just seem gone
Your faded footsteps I re-step through just to feel whole
My skin prickles as I step each hard step through your ghost
It's strange to be here doing the things
People have done so many times before.
Yet each time I remember the things we did
I feel I have to open our special door

Spread my fingers in front of my face
Drinking in the fact they were once round your frame
Already touched thousands of things after that last embrace
Yet that day feels like just only yesterday

I don't share as many things with you as I did
Only the air we breathe and the earth beneath our warm feet
I stare at the same stars and clouds as you
Dreading my reaction to you the next day we meet
My emotions and memories they are all now hid
Beneath a black sheet of denial and lies
It is only to myself that I commit deceit
The memories always resurface, unwilling to die

Happy to at least share the same breath as you
Wish I could only share my lonely cold soul with you

Figuring It Out

I wonder what it's like in your mind
Tunnels, caves, blackness and lies
I want to understand and be there for you
If you are as unhappy as you say you are
Crimson is my heart when it thinks of you
Black and cold is my heart now you pushed me away
I hope one day you will find your way
Out of the unknown and into this sunny day

I can't make you love me
I don't know how you feel
I can't force you into feelings
I cant help to reveal
All I want is your safety
Your happiness, your confidence
To come flooding gleefully back through you

You are as precious as a diamond
You do not see
The love and adoration for you
Thats flowing freely from me

My love isn't enough it seems
To make you safe, happy and warm
If there isn't someone else
You will catch you when you fall?

You can push me away, screaming and shouting
For I will not let go until I'm doubting
The love for you I know will stay
Right within me until my dying day

Tears don't come from nowhere
They're from the heart
a defense, a punishment
For you ripping us both apart

When you finally understand
Come back to me
Tell me honest and true
You dont share the love that comes from me

Your Quest

Many Ataris songs come to mind
While coping with what's left behind
Your soft skin like yesterday
Resides in my memory
Imagery of comforting you
The pain has no remedy
I do not wish to feel this low
But your words as harsh as the deep black crow
Hard to comprehend how you have changed
My mind and my dreams all seem so deranged

I am half a person of what I was
Desperate for our paths to once again cross
I can't help but want you back with me
I wonder if one day soon you will see
No-on can love you as half as much as I
For you I would without a doubt die
Like leaves that fall from towering trees
I want you to find your love for me

Once Was

You were my salvation, my love
You were my life, my love
You consumed my days, my love
You let me down. my love

Empty; lay my hands
Empty; lays my heart
Empty; lays my mind
Empty; lays my soul

Lost and alone; my joy gone
Scared and crying; my joy gone
Confused and in denial; my life gone
Sad and numb; my life gone

Void; the black hole gaping
Missing; flag bold above my head
Lost; scared to be alone
Stuck; wanting to end it all soon

Unloved but in love; you're gone
Wasted energy; never to return
Fear of hatred; you're definately gone
Fear of losing you further; you leave me standing alone

Nothing Makes Any Sense Anymore

A blank page with no writing
A ball lays untouched in the grass
A bird has no ability to sing
A duck with no webbed feet
A knife without a blade
A door with no handle
A cave without the darkness
A heart misses an echoing beat

A void is inside of me
A place lays bare of something so pure
All positivity swept away in a blink of an eye
Now I know how it feels to be alone

Pointless hours wasted drowning in salty tears
No capabilities to drink, to eat, to live
Just constant routines of misery and silence
Wondering where it all went to horribly wrong

A monster now lives in the hole inside me
I don't like, I'm scared I want it gone
Like a painting untouched I exist
A veil over me so no-one can see
Extracted the love, the trust, the self esteem
Now I'm just a broken mess
Nothing makes much sense anymore
Nothing takes priority anymore
Just the misery and it's control over me