7 Weeks Gone

Now you're gone
You stole a chunk of me too
Looking at pictures of you
I just wish you're here

Tears still poison my eyes
My heart still tortures me
I really just can't be
Knowing you're there without me

You don't want me fair enough
But my soul still lives in your bed
You still have my heart, my everything
Locked up in a box in your head

I promised you everything
I don't break my sugar promises

You left your mark here
Your tee shirt I still wear at night
I can sometimes see the light
But then it always copmes back down to you

My love is wasted on someone like you
Who lost the appreciation for my love
How could you throw this away?
Live on without me another day?

While I can't, you're still there
Lurking, stalking my every thought
When I succeed I think of you
And how proud you would be too

When I cry, or feel low
I desperate to pick up the phone
You need time on your own
While I sit here loving you alone

Are you happy, truly happy?
Am I the biggest mistake you ever made?
Do I not light up your life no more?
You still light mine my love

Always...

Rain And The Sun

Bleeding blue sky
Cried sugar coated tears
That scorch the earth
With emotions in every drop
Bulging garing grey clouds
Release firecrackers of yellow bolts
As punishment in anger in all it's glory
Overcast, the people run
Shielding from bolts of bold fury
The sky it roared in anger
Screaming in pain and release
Throwing down cold chilling droplets of dread
Darkness moves in like the grim reaper
Obscuring, demanding, veiling,
Captures the world in its claws, digging in
Smell of darkness is rank and of fear
Ten hours of punishment pouring down
Laughter I can hear booming from the clouds
The winner it takes over, ruling all
Tightening it's grip in sheer fury
The knight comes in on its white horse
It shines bright, overcoming the shadows
Breaking through it tears holes heartily
Distant moans of defeat drowned by the sun
Yells of defeat in beams of white light
Now they reign gleefully obliviating the night
The world is unleashed, freed of the black spell, release, freedom, no more peril

Treasured Memories

Do you remember Ben and Jerry's?
Phish food in bed and you fed me with a spoon?

Do you recall the long drive to Portsmouth?
I slept in the car and drooled like a loon

Do you reminice the countless movies, walks and cooking?
Our mundane tasks made us laugh and love each other more

Do you see me in the bed, kitchen, street and your car?
My half smile drenched thoughts of the man I adored

Do you appreciate my time, effort and love?
I put so much in and never wanted to get out

Do you dream, sleep and eat un-haunted?
For fear my memory leaves you feeling doubt

Do you visualise my ghost in every place?
I cry each day-your shadow's not left without a trace

Do you regret or unappreciate my soul I gave?
Now I suffocate as I watch you rip the tracks I paved

LadyBird

He twitches
His wings twitch like a seizure in your hand
He flips
His blood red shell explodes to reveal velvet
He toddles
His tiny tickling feet marathon the heart line
He spins
His wings expand and fly high away
Away

Walls and Doors

We build walls,a stone wall
We forget the door on purpose
When we have been hurt
Last thing you want is to again fall

Bittenress can rule inside four walls
Four walls four dark walls
Good will come and bad will poison
Relationships can the mind appaul

People come and go
Some will be brilliant, ones to wait for
Waiting at the door for years on end
No-one will come for you with a tow

It can be hard, like bricks thrown
To have love leave your life no double takes
Seeds were sown long ago for you
In your mind those seeds have grown

Build a door, steel enforced
Build a door, wheatgrass
Build a door, flammable wood
Build no door, nothing will come

I will again build a door, leave it ajar
For someone to wonder in and take me far
Far, high above the clouds
Keep me safe there and guard my door

Limbo Steps

Emotions are like sparks from the flames
Random, soaring, unpredictable, wild
Sometimes void just tends to prevail
Laughter comes to mind also, smile through pain
Confused as to whether I'll talk to you again
Second chances is my name
Always willing to try again
Only so many cards of hearts I can deal
Before I've given them all away

So long ago, the pain renewed
Worst fears confirmed, no surprises
Always knew it inside but denial's middle name
The anger just like balloons, rises and rises
Knew it inside, I tell you
Pushed him to find the truth
For you would never reveal
The darker side there was to you

Not so much betrayal; disappointed, done deed
Knew it over a dozen months ago
Always said inside I would snuff our flame
I am alone now in this cold dark empty room
Spilt pills before me, contemplating what to do
Mascara face, weary eyes
Dreading to sleep for fear of dreams haunted with your eyes